Friday, May 29, 2009

Consciousness

How conscious are you?

If you're human (and you probably are if you're reading this), then you probably think you're in control of your actions, you know what you're doing and that you're a word conscious. After all, we humans have language and culture, we plan our actions, we have morals, we have religion. we have technology, we care for other people, to doubt that we have something so.. fundamental as consciousness seem to be silly or out-of-this-world, or is it?

Well, for one thing most of (if not all) of the things mentioned above that might convince one of their own consciousness are in fact, very much practiced by our dear friends from the animal kingdom. Monkeys have been known to have different calls when different predators appear, warning each other of their danger, dolphins use their supersonic sound abilities to communicate, ants use chemical/hormonal signals to convey messages to each other (language). Culture is found in various primate species and monkeys, one famous example is in japan when researchers feed monkeys sweet potatoes on the beach. One of the monkeys discovered that the sand can be gotten rid of by washing the potato is water, and soon after all the monkeys were doing it. Birds migrate in advance to avoid unpleasant weather (planning). Vampire bats regurgitate blood for their fellow non-related bat mates when they have extra blood (morality). Chimps use sticks to catch ants and leaves as cups (technology). There are a thousand other examples for any of the above, the point is, what we often consider as distinctively "human" behavior, is in fact, quite apparent in in the animal kingdom. If we're conscious, then they're conscious. We're just (arguably) "consciouser".

Imagine the simplest of microorganisms, perhaps a photosynthesizing bacteria. One can imagine a gene appearing in the population, causing the bacteria to sway their flagellum or whatever when not in presence of light. Such a gene would have a very simple mechanism. Maybe the gene encode for the creation of a protein that causes the flagellum to sway when photosynthesis isn't going on. Such a gene would easily flourish in the population, because by swaying their flagellum in the dark, the bacteria with the gene would have a better chance of being in a position to photosynthesize, and thus living and reproducing. Okay, now imagine another gene that makes the said bacteria not only sway their flagellum in the dark, but in fact, guides the bacteria towards the light. This gene would obviously flourish, due to the same logic as above. Now, did the bacteria just evolved more consciousness?

I can just hear the cries of protest after the last sentence. But the bacteria doesn't KNOW what it's doing, it doesn't KNOW that by moving towards the light it would survive better! It just does because it's in its genes! Obviously human desires, wants, behavior, actions are not merely a set of reproductively successful genetic codes!

Of course, it is only obvious until you really think about it. First off, one must acknowledge that we, humans, indeed have needs and corresponding uncontrollable (and thus quite unconscious) feelings. Among these feelings are hunger, thirst, sexual desire, avoidance to cold/heat etc etc.. No (sane and/or knowledgeable) person disputes that these feelings have a genetic basis, if you don't eat, don't drink, stay in the cold/heat too long you die. If your dad and/or your mum did not have sexual feelings, you wouldn't be here.

Oh, so true.

Only problem here is, people very often use their very conscious brain to fulfill their above unconscious desire. Guys try to impress girls, everyone works for food and clothing, etc etc.
So our very conscious mind is in fact, being constantly used to fulfill our very unconscious desires. The natural follow up argument after this, is of course, that not all our feelings are for fulfilling such desires. How would, for example, something like sacrificing yourself for your family be unconscious?

Self-sacrificing acts for others is generally termed altruism. Now, how can such an act be caused by our subconscious? After all, genes don't care about our human ideals and values. Truthfully, they do not. What they do care about, however is making copies of themselves through you not dying, having sex, and ensuring other copies of themselves get to survive and be copied. Many times altruism confuse people, how would such a trait evolve, if it were not good for one's survival? Perhaps it's a purely moral act, one that's conceived by our conscious minds? Or not. The fallacy lies in the mistake that organism themselves are being selected for, when it is essentially the genes. Think of it this way, a son/daughter has half their genes from their mother and half from their father. When a father dives into a burning building to save a son, he is essentially putting himself at calculated (not consciously!) risk of putting himself in danger to save half of his genes. Obviously, genes that help copies of themselves would survive and proliferate.

Think that's freaky? Consider the split brain experiment done by psychologists. The severing of the right brain of the left brain is done to treat epilepsy patients. Normally, even though their right brains and left brains aren't connected, these people are able to function just as any other normal humans. To quote from wiki:
"A patient with a split brain, when shown an image in his or her left visual field (that is, the left half of what both eyes see), will be unable to name what he or she has seen. This is because the speech-control center is in the left side of the brain in most people, and the image from the left visual field is sent only to the right side of the brain. (Those with the speech control center in the right side will experience similar symptoms when an image is presented in the right visual field.) Since communication between the two sides of the brain is inhibited, the patient cannot name what the right side of the brain is seeing. The person can, however, pick up and show recognition of an object (one within the left overall visual field) with their left hand, since that hand is controlled by the right side of the brain."
The cool part? When they showed a command to walk to the right brain (the one that couldn't do language), the patient started walking. When asked why he started walking, the patient said he was thirsty and was going to grab a drink, and sincerely believed it. What if all our actions are caused by something unconscious like our dear patient? Perhaps the command might not be from a researcher, but our genes. Maybe we do things before we think we know why we do them.

So, again,

How conscious are you?

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

It hurts.

Ever done something borderline stupid, not particularly good for you but that something you'd absolutely never regret? Well that happened yesterday. After water polo training (which include roughly 1.5km of swimming), some evil entity managed to convince me to go to boxing training.

Here's how it goes. Push ups - punching - push ups again - sprinting - punching bag - sit ups -leg lifts - stretching - sit ups again - jump rope - push ups again - non-stop punching - push ups again - sprints - more sit ups... All while a guy with a huge beard is insulting everything about your girlfriend, your manliness.. etc..

It's not that bad. Just 4 hours of intense physical torture (which made my total exercise time last night close to 6 hours). Oh, did I mention i had an 8a.m class today morning and training ended at 2.15a.m. Of course, my minor flu that could very well possibly went away after a good night's sleep developed into a full-blown one, and now I'm sneezing uncontrollably. The worse thing is, every time i sneeze, the muscles on my stomach hurt, not to mention every other part of my body when I do anything at all.

Fuck.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Rationalizations

Once, I told someone he was a master of rationalizations.
It wasn't a compliment. Despite the strange spelling of the word, rationalizations isn't what it sounds like, on the contrary, it's a failure of rationality and reasoning. Rationalization is the process of constructing a logical justification for a belief, decision, action or lack thereof that was originally arrived at through a different mental process. In other words, it's a process of self-delusion to make one more comfortable of oneself, or to avoid dealing with certain issues. There is a common tale that most of us have heard before that implies the seemingly foolishness of rationalizations, that is of course, the tale of the fox who couldn't get the grapes. Due to the failure of the fox to obtain the grapes, he rationalized that the grapes were sour and moved on.

This of course, exemplifies the foolishness of rationalizing, and after reading that story I'm sure most of us felt a sense of superiority (as we often do when we hear of someone doing something foolish) and that we'd never do as the fox did. Ironic thing is, humans are masters of rationalizations and self-delusion. The power of rationalizations shouldn't be underestimated. Once, a cult figure manipulated the rationalizing ability of close to a thousand people, making them commit mass suicide. Through a period of time he steadily abuse the rationalizing nature of his followers, the fact that they were only normal people does nothing but make the incident more disturbing. For the curious, just wiki Jonestown.

If you think we're safe from such mental manipulation then you'd be wrong. People's ability to ignore, not notice, or deem unimportant evidence contradicting their acquired beliefs can be astounding. One example that plagues many of us is direct sale companies. We've all had at least a friend that participated in such activities. Receive a call from an old friend that you were never close with? A decent chance he's trying to "give you an opportunity" to achieve financial freedom.

Religious people of course, are masters of rationalizations. Religious doctrine not making logical sense and having no evidence to support whatsoever? No problem. Our god works in mysterious ways. Other typical responses that really makes no sense if you aren't rationalizing? God did it to preseve free-will, god is testing your faith, god must exist because I learn good things from religion, prayers work because sometimes what you pray for comes true (although the other times God just doesn't want to give you what you want).

Truth.

Other common rationalizations in day to day life include a smoker that rationalize that smoking is just another harmless activity, a fat/out of shape person telling himself he/she hasn't the time to exercise, a person too cowardly to try something new rationalizing that that new thing probably isn't worth the effort (classic sour grapes), a girl after being used and dump rationalizing that the guy must have some noble motive . I don't need to list down many more. If you open your eyes and observe the people around you, you'd be sure to notice countless rationalizations, ranging from somewhat convincing to downright pathetic.

So, as you can see, the human mind is particularly good at rationalizing. Next time you make a judgment, a decision, or a thought, ask yourself, do you really know what the grapes taste like? Rationalizations may be tempting at times, but they also prevent us from seeing the truth about ourselves, about other people, and about the world. They might make you feel better, but whatever good you're feeling from rationalizations is equivalent to the satisfaction of the fox thinking the grapes are sour. Face reality, accept it as it is, and do what you need to get what you want. The grapes might turn out to be sour, or they might not, but one day you might get your chance to try them.

Ultimate Birth Control

I present to you now, the ultimate form of birth control known to man.



It's effectiveness is summarized by the following quote:
" I completely believe this is an effective form of birth control.
One look at Pope B16 and I lose all interest in sex ."
Apparently the Pope recently made a comment about condoms not helping the AIDs problem, and these condoms were made to mock him. (The French are very creative people.)


Anyone can guess what this is?
Come on. It's not that hard.
Answer(highlight to see): It's a dildo in the form of baby jesus.

Now that you know what it is...

Awesomeness.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Little Pleasures

Ever notice how when you hang out with a friend you tend to gain some new experience and learn something new? This post is dedicated to all my friends, old and new, and the pleasure I gained in knowing you.

Some of you have taught me that you can find little treasures everywhere if you look (e.g, an unknown cassette on the roadside),
some of you have taught me that ordering spring rolls at secret recipe isn't a waste of money (god they were awesome),
some of you have made me realize that sometimes (just sometimes!) it's okay to act like a kid,
some of you just make me smile,
some of you give me new insights on human behavior,
some of you made me realize that it's really not that hard to decide what you want in life and we should follow our dream with persistence,
some of you taught me the value of having an open-mind,
some of you have cautioned me against the dangers of tempting rationalizations and false beliefs,
some of you have taught me that sometimes, we shouldn't judge a book by it's cover,
some of you grace me with wonderful (cough) music,
some of you made me pick up something I never would if I never met you,
some of you taught me how to drink,
some of you remind me that as a young adult, I must take responsibility for my actions,
some of you become outlets for me to show a dark sadistic side of myself,
some of you provide me with intellectual conversations,
all of you help me grow as a person,

So to all my friends, thank you, life is indeed full of hormone-inducing little pleasures.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Happiness

Perhaps one of the first things I should do is to get around writing something about a certain emotion we have come to know as happiness. Why is happiness intriguing? Simple, it's because we all seek happiness, and we have all achieved it some point or another, yet it seems happiness never lasts. Just think of the times you felt happy in the past, perhaps you did when you just started a relationship, or maybe when you scored straight As, or when you won a sports competition. I'm sure many of you feel satisfied at achieving whatever you did that made you happy in the past, and will probably describe yourself as happy about the achievement in the past. But the truth is you probably do not feel the wonderful feeling now as you did then. You have the satisfaction that you achieved something, but it's more likely that that satisfaction now is making you work extra hard for another does of happiness, be it from love, peer acceptance, or academic/sports achievements.

The point of the above analysis is that happiness never seems to last. Ask someone whether he or she is happy or not, and the most likely answer is a hesitant satisfied, average, or maybe even downright unhappy. People, thus are constantly working in pursuit of happiness, occasionally catching up to it yet when they pause to take a breath, happiness dashes ahead once again, and it happens all over again. Sounds implausible? Think about it.

Doesn't really make sense does it? Why do we seek happiness, if we can only experience it fleetingly every time even though it seems we put so much hard work into it. To understand this phenomenon we need to look towards our dear friend Darwin, and to the extremely controversial field of evolutionary psychology. First of all, think of what usually causes happiness. Usually it's either, i) getting into a relationship, ii) achieving something hard to achieve, indirectly gaining respect and social status (few people would find must joy in acheiving something nobody cares for), iii) gaining money or material objects (resources yo). Now think about how all of these can help your ancestors in the past. Obvious isn't it? Getting into a relationship (or getting a mate) means chance to pass on your genes, gaining social status would bring many benefits such as more potential mates, access to more resources, and gaining resources is of course, self-explanatory (you need food to survive, clothes to keep you warm, etc).

Now brings on the other interesting question. Why doesn't the feeling last? If you've been following the logic till now, the answer should be obvious, if obtaining happiness is nature's way of pushing our ancestors (or us) towards evolutionary success, then it would of course, work better if we were constantly in pursuit of it, which would not be true if happiness lasts! In other words, happiness like a drug that nature bestows upon us, and we are like addicts, constantly in pursuit of happiness, and in doing so, indirectly ensuring our evolutionary success!

Quite a cheery disposition, isn't it?

It begins.

So, I decided to start a blog. Mainly because I frequently have ideas and thoughts in my mind that I'd like to write down. Some of them might be potentially disturbing for those not accustomed to my way of thinking. That's it for now. More interesting updates to come.